How to deal with sexually abusing family member?
This has been haunting me for a long time now and I don't really know what to do. Pretty much, (im a GIRL), my brother is 6 years my junior and I'm now 15. When I was like idk 10 I started to get a LOT of sexual feelings. In GENERAL, not to my BROTHER. Like I discovered masturbating early and that was around the time I found porn. I didn't WATCH it, I just saw pictures and I pretty much just felt super sexual. I didn't know what to do about it obviously being so young. I only have my younger brother as a sibling and I think I used to sexually abuse him. I never TOUCHED him, I just stripped and stuff and used to play little games where I would go on "dates" then "made out" with the guy, which would be my brother. I didn't know what I was doing, all I knew was I was sexual and I wanted attention. I KNEW what I was doing was wrong though as I'd tell my brother not to tell my mom. One day I think my brother told my mom about the "making out" games and she told me being a little kid to stop and I honestly did. The worst I did was tell my brother to touch (just TOUCH not do anything) down there and he did. I told him to take his pants off, he shook his head so I said okay, and stopped it there. The games happened maybe 8 times at most within a month but now I feel SUPER guilty. He hasn't brought it up and maybe he was too young to remember but what should I do with my guilt? ;/
NOO I do NOT still have these feelings. I was young and confused about sexual feelings and I didn't know. I WISH I didn't do it. I just feel guilt now.
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